THE LAST RESORT!

It's been said that one has a breaking point.  In all things.  Could be a job... could be a group... be a relationship.  How does one get pushed exactly?  People often say that enough is enough.  How true is that?  Nothing in life tends to be both fair and both equal.  And in relationship this rings very very true.

Couples go thru the ups and they go thru the downs.  At which point is enough enough?  I have this friend who has been in a terribly shitty marriage for years upon years.  There is nothing good about their marriage.  Outwards and in.  The clearly don't love each other anymore and yet they stay.  Why?  Ask her...she doesn't want to start over...ask him...it's because she's hot.  What the actual fuck...

Here in lies the last resort conundrum.  When does the last ditch effort to save whatever piece of dignity you have left when the ship is going down and going down in flames.  When do you give it all you have to save something, that just might not be worth saving in the end.  How do you judge if it is even worth it?  

When you think about a resort.  What comes to mind?  Basking in the sun...great food...sand in your toes?  That piece of heaven that people desperately try to find day in and day out.  But alas, this is not the resort that I speak of.  

The last resort is not all sunshine and ice cold Coronas.  It's more like my hand is on the doorknob slowly turning it while I plan my escape.  Everyone wishes for a mostly happily ever after, but it's rare that most people find it.  

I found the one true love of my life.  And I fought hard everyday to show her just how much she was loved, appreciated and ALWAYS wanted.  Only to be made to feel like I was never good enough.  Like I didn't matter.  I should've walked away many times.  Afterall I have always been the guy that preaches self worth.  To always tell my friends they need to recognize when to walk out the door.  Yet I found myself in the war of my life.  Letting go is always easy...in theory.  But fuck does hurt hurt.  You never want to learn hard lessons.  Especially when it comes to matters of the heart.  But I find myself being a student.  The last resort is to save yourself, but the alternative is far far worse!

~The Increasingly Poor Decisions of Brian Sevier